Cassie's birthday weekend!

Thursday the 21st we went to the Boo at the Zoo with my parents. Even though it was cold and packed we had fun! The girls were a Spider(S) and a Pumpkin(C). They did a costume contest. Shaylee did a face painting, pictures taken with a chinchilla, a few games,looked at the animals. It was really fun bummed we couldn't ride the train but it was an hour wait when we got to the zoo and then it was a 2 hour wait when we left and it only had 45 minutes before it closed so we wouldn't have been able to ride.

Friday the 22nd we had family/1 year pictures. Landra Brown Dimmich who I went to school with did the pictures. She understood our finanical problems and offered to take them for only gas money ( I want to repay her though as soon as we can because the pictures came out beautiful!) We started out at my parents and worked our way to Happy Hollow. Both girls did awesome and Steve even was fine with a few family pictures since we have never had any done!!! It was great day.Here are just a few of the tons that we got. It was about a 3.5 hour shoot!

Her party was on Saturday. Grandma,Papaw, auntie Logan,GG and great grandma Ginny came to celebrate. She got a lot of books, a plate, bowl, socks, and a few sweaters. Her cake was an owl cupcake cake from Mamaw's Sweet Shoppe here in Lafayette. We had pizza,salad, chips and cheese bread. She didn't know what to do with the cake!!!

Oct 16

My Cassie Roll was due 1 year ago today but she was stubborn that she didn't want to come into our family just yet. It's so odd thinking back to that day........... it seems like yesterday.

PLEASE TAKE TIME TO REMEMBER LOST BABIES

Oct. is not only breast cancer awareness month it is also pregnancy and infant loss as well.

Those that know me know I have lost 3 babies due to miscarriage. 06/07/08 yep 3 one each year. 1 before Shaylee 2 before Cassie. I might not talk about it alot but I think it's because it's hard for me and I don't like to bring it up because it saddens me so much because each were very hard. That doesn't mean that they were not wanted or that I don't love them. God KNOWS how much I wanted ALL my babies. God choose to take the babies he thought would be better in heaven they needed to stay with him. He Blessed us with 2 BEAUTIFUL girls to stay with us on Earth.

Please take time to say a prayer for all my babies and others that have lost. I have a link to Cora's story it's a beautiful blog.

My Wish List

New(er) van *
House in the country or atleast outside of Lafayette*
New clothes for me*
Weekend trip to Indy for the museum and zoo*
A ton of movies/books
Misc. house stuff
New laptop
Kitten

Last/next few weeks

Shaylee has been in pre school since Oct. 5th and has LOVED every second of it. She is so proud when she comes home to show off and tell us what she did in school that day. We always look forward to that time of day. She is one of the best students which really surprises me since she NEVER listens to us!!LOL She has learned so much in such that little time she has been going.
I am not used to having 2 hours twice a week without Shaylee so I am still figuring out how to "waste" that time. I either come home and clean if Steve and Cassie are still sleeping, read, play on the computer, go to the library, go back to bed or just do nothing!!

I have also spent MANY hours lately thinking that since it's close to the holidays filling out applications for seasonal jobs. 12 to be exact and I have been told by 2 that I am OVER qualified for them ....sure..... also been called back 3 times for one but yet have been hired. Feeling useless other than my mommy skills in the world.

Steve decided to go for his chauffeur licence's so that he can open up some more job possibilities to him, if that doesn't work out by spring he is going back to school since he missed the deadline early this year for diesel mechanic.

We had school pictures done, Exploration Acres to the corn maze/pumpkin patch one weekend with the girls, we also went on a double date with Logan(sister) and Erik her boyfriend. Yep never thought I would say that in my life time since she's 17 and I am 30 and she wanted nothing to do with guys or the thought of dating/marriage etc.. Last night my parents and sister went to go see "our boys" Score 24 in concert. It was a blast. Great seeing them such adorable guys!!

So coming up in the next few we have Boo at the Zoo ( I won 4 tickets today for it!!!!) we can't wait to take Shaylee again since we haven't been since she was 18 months. My parents are hopefully going with us. Shaylee a spider 2 times in a row and this will be the last year for it since it's too short almost. Cassie a pumpkin which is adorable and will fit next year as well. Then Cassie's 1 year pictures by Landra Brown Dimmick who I went to school with and was friends with. She is AWESOME!! What a great person seriously I owe her ALOT. I want to get a few of the girls together and one family picture together as well but mostly Cassie since it's HER day!!
Then the next day her party she's ONE OMG she is going to be ONE!!!! I have a great bakery doing her cake (owl shaped cupcake cake) , pizza , cheese bread, salad, chips it's gonna be great!
We didn't get her much but we were able to get a good deal on a LeapFrog puppy that says her name, colors,etc. I think she'll like it and a dvd. She's one she doesnt need alot. Christmas hopefully we will have jobs and I can get a little more for her.

I stress, get paranoid, feel bad about myself, don't sleep much but in all honesty I can't say I would change alot expect having a job. I love my family I know stress,etc comes with parenting and I understand that completely and I welcome that because I WANT my kids I want EVERYTHING that comes with my kids.